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I pulled another fucking all nighter. Im watching the retro report documentary on columbine. Besides the cigarette im having now i only have one left. Shake my fucking head. I drew sol two times and colt one time, also. Colt seems like a fucking loser i dont get his fangirls. Plus, he looks like my ex who turned into a trapper. Anyway, i cleaned my room and made a fat ass to do list so i dont fall asleep. ALSO!! I had a fucking cystic pimple or whatever its called on my chin and i popped it with a needle. Istg im doing skincare for nothing after doing this shit. Either way, thank you for coming to my ted talk. Ttyl.

Fuuuuuuuh another all nighter. the single time i do these journal entries is when im not sleeping. whatever. that new bitchass "perp" from tumblr is so retarded. the fact that perps are getting dumber is good tho. me personally, i dont like people dying. unless it me. then fuck yeah, i cheer. Anyway, i have a marlboro and some tobacco left so ill survive yet another night. thats good. i also hung out with L today. i love her sm. sometimes im sad cuz ill never be her best friend since im pretty sure im just some placeholder until better friends come into her life, but its okay. ill take whatever i can, as long as i dont go back to doing coke. also i should take my pills but im too lazy rn. oh well, too bad. see you later.

i hate getting pissed over the smallest things ever. like, today, i got a new watch from the antique store. it needed a new specific battery we could from a store. my parents told me to wait until they finish their work helping a neighbour and we'll go, but it has no point since its saturday and the store is closed by now. can you imagine wanting to relapse over this shit? its pathetic. i hate it here and all i wanna do is cry, especially since i know that if i relapse now i wont stop for a very very long time. its always like this. i always get so hurt over the stupidest, most retarded shit. im pathetic. i never got better.

good evening neocities diary!! guess who started skipping school again... anyway, i got two nw friends in highschool. theyre rlly cool and were hanging out tomorrow, going to a cafe. im going to bring my camcorder as well!! anddddd im gett8ing a new cup from pepco since my first kuromi one broke. also, so sorry if i type weird. i got nails on. i have a really cool outfit planned out, but lets ignore the fact that im gonna use my ex dealers hodie. its cool, okay?? whatever. lets just hope my lashes turn out good. byebye!!

hi neocities diary!! (again).. im pulling yet another all nighter, this time to study and finish my tattoos. i also wanna watch greenstreet hooligans anddd a few dvds if i have time. or The Duel Club 2022, theres this hot guy in it :P ill probably edit this entry as i go throughout the night or not at all. we'll see. update. i forgot my fucking planner at school. if anyone took it i WILL cry.